Alice in wonderland

I really don’t lose hope

I really don’t lose strength

I really don’t lose faith

And I believe it still can move the mountain…

I still have dreams

I still have love

I still have joy

I still can share them…

I still have loving family

I still have caring friends

I still have awesome and mighty God

I still can enjoy life

Even life is a mystery and filled with misery

But…

I still can find love in a world filled with anger

I still can find hope in a world filled with sorrow

I still can find faith in a world filled with uncertainty

I still know I will survive if these three things stand…

Faith, hope and love…

Sometimes I ask self, “how can I survive in this cruel & heartless world?”
LIfe is so uncertain, so blur, unstable and unpredictable.
People come and go, they’re born and die. They grow old and withered. The proud of the youth is a vanity, the strength may dissapear in a blink, the wealth goes like a lightning…

Then…
I see the sky above and look at those giant clouds, I wonder is that You waving to me?
I feel the breeze at my face, are You kissing me?
I smell the fragrance of the rain, are You just passing by?
I look at the colors of field and the beauty of flowers, is that Your shadow?
I hear the bird singing..are You whistling?
I hear the waves of the ocean, is that You whispering me ?
I touch the flowing streams, I feel the cold night, I feel the warm of the sunshine
Are You hugging me and covering me with Your blanket of love?
I breathe, I run, I jump and I dance…
Yes, I am shouting, “is that You? are You there?”
I cannot escape from You, nowhere to run, nowhere to hide…
U are all around me..
You blend Yourself in nature and You fill the earth with Your magnificent works
and nature itself reflects Your majesty…
lemme touch the nature and lemme touch You..
Is it true what You’re saying that I’m Your own and You are responsible with mylife?
No better guarantee than You, mon Dieu!

I never have any special plans for any of my birthdays; the routine ones were treating family and friends. Not all friends of course, only several friends that close to me. :p

I used to receive birthday greetings from sms, emails, phonecalls, hugs and kisses from friends. And for me, that’s enough! Sometimes I bring some snacks or cakes to the office.

I recalled last year bday, a group of friends at the office gave me a tiramisu cake with burning candle and they lined up and sang “happy birthday” in the morning, while the bosses haven’t come yet. Then we ate the cake together, and I treated them at lunch time. After office hour, I spent the night watching DVD at my room. Suddenly I heard a knock at the door, voila! Another group of friends gathered there and one of them handed me a delicious cheesecake with burning candle. Then they gathered at my room, eating cakes together and open some gifts. It was beautiful moments!

Bdays are always fascinating!

But this bday was different, why I called this different? Several weeks before, I was so blue and sad. I felt like I wanna run away and disappear from my current life. I need a quite time to reflect my life ALONE! I want to analyze things, problems and spend more time in God’s presence. And I need to hear His voice and guidance and ask for more wisdom, to see things with His perspective. These were my plans, I thought it’s gonna run exactly as I planned. Beside, isn’t it a perfect and ‘holy’ plan, rite?

But God knows the best for me. His thoughts are far beyond my thoughts. He always knows how to handle or treat His ‘disappointing & grumbling child’. He provided comfort and consolation with His ways (not my ways). He provided a perfect friend in a perfect time with perfect words. He also cheers me up with good and caring friends (even I want to run/hide from them at first, but they surely never let me go! hahahaha! thx). He turned my sorrows into joy! Even the problems are still there, but He does give me joy and new perspective to see them. Two days before bday, I was so overloaded with joy! I couldn’t stop laughing almost about everything while talking with friends, while doing my works, etc. And I found there were so many funny things around me, even silly and small things that didn’t look funny. hehehehe. Then I realized it’s not my joy, but His joy that gave me strength! The joy of the LORD is my strength.

So that’s why I called this bday was so special! Is it enough? He provides me with more joy!

A friend surprised me with a cute and delicious cup cake with sugar icing pumpkin at its top. So cute! Really! Then she gave me a present! Wow!

I was so busy at that day, there’s a tax seminar at my office, so I ran here and there, checking this and that. I was free in the evening after the seminar finished! But in the afternoon, my mom called me and wondering there’s a bouquet of roses delivered to my house as a birthday gift! It’s so beautiful!! Then my best friend called me from Singapore just to say “happy bday!” I miss you a lot, twin! I do!

In the evening, I treated some colleagues to a dinner. Then another friend bought a bottle of wine as a present to celebrate my bday! And it cost more than the meal actually!

I guess that’s enough. But…

The next day, cell group friends surprised me with Tiramisu cake. And they prayed for me. I got another present from a friend there!

I never got so many presents like this bday (except my 17^th bday:p). And I’m amazed how God shows His affections to me thru my friends…

And I believe there’ll be so many to come…

This weekend, I’m gonna treat my family with different style *wink*. Hope they’ll like it!

Next week, there’ll be another round with another group of friends! Joy must be shared and celebrated, isn’t it?

Thank you friends! My life wouldn’t be complete without you!

ganbei!

Holiday??

I believe there’s no one on earth hate holidays. It can be some kind of energizer when the holidays (especially long holidays) come nearer. Suddenly life will be more beautiful, feel relaxed, flooded with relief, less of tension, less of worry. The mind can be flooded with plans and things to do. Or maybe if we don’t have any plans, we just love holidays! Holiday means take a day off…

Hohoho..okay..off from what?

From routine?

From job responsibilities?

From annoying and demanding boss? (hehehe)

From phone calls, emails, documents…etc..

Anything u can name it!

We can do whatever we like or we want without worrying things like deadline!

We want sleep until noon, we want to visit friends or hang out without time limit?

But, is that the real meaning of holiday?

Why we can be so excited in holidays and feel depressed in workdays?

Is it because of the tension we get from others or is it because we can’t do whatever we like, is it because we can’t control our schedule like we want?

Everyone loves being free, unchained and uncontrolled by time, schedule or people. No burden! That’s the point of holiday! Being free!

So, everyone loves holiday…everyone loves freedom…

Enjoy the holiday in everyday (read: enjoy the freedom in everyday)

Is it possible?

These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation; but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world. Jn 16:33

Flowers are always fascinating and beautiful! There are million of flowers that grow on the earth and they speak a million languages through the implied flower meanings. The most popular and wanted flowers world-wide both because of their beauty and exceptional fragrances:

1.Rose means love & appreciation. (You can read the details below)

2.Chrysanthemum means cheerfulness, optimism, rest & truth.

3.Tulip means grace & elegance, but generally it means perfect love. Like many flowers, different colors of tulips also often carry their own significance.

4.Lily means innocence & purity. I love Stargazer! It means ambition. It’s one of Lilies’ families. Lilies have so many beautiful varieties, like Calla lilies (meaning majestic beauty and sophistication), Peruvian lilies, etc.

The colors play an important rule too, check it out!

Red = love & respect
Pink = admiration & appreciation
White = purity & reverence
Yellow = joy & friendship
Orange = enthusiasm & desire
Lavender = grace, elegance and feminine beauty
Purple = royalty, pride & success
Blue = openness and serenity, representing peace

Honestly, I am mad of Roses and Chrysanthemum. Several times I tried to plant them, but when the flowers bloomed and withered, these lovely plants also died! Geez!

Various varieties and colors of roses denote different meanings.

Red roses are the traditional symbol for love and romance, and a time-honored way to say "I love you." The red rose has long symbolized beauty and perfection. A bouquet of red roses is the perfect way to express your deep feelings for someone special

Pink rose is often given as an expression of admiration. Pink roses can also convey appreciation as well as joyfulness. You are lovely!

White roses represent innocence and purity and are traditionally associated with marriages and new beginnings. The white rose is also a symbol of honor and reverence, and white rose arrangements are often used as an expression of remembrance.

The yellow rose is an ideal symbol for joy and friendship.

The lavender rose is also traditionally used to express feelings of love at first sight.

Orange roses often symbolize passion and excitement and are an expression of fervent romance.

     There is no room for Valentine day without a rose.

Beside those most popular flowers I mentioned above, there are still thousands of flowers that can make you astonished. And they also bring a great idea for gift to show that you care.

Carnation means fascination, devoted love. This flower can be a symbol of mother’s love These lovely flowers have lasting qualities, and are often handed out on Mother’s Day to symbolize the purity and strength of motherhood. When you receive a red carnation bouquet, it means, "My heart aches for you" and when you receive white carnations the sender is saying: "I am still available.

Aster means daintiness or enchanted but it could have another message “I am not sure whether you have been faithful to me”. Hehehehe..regardless of the meanings, these wild flowers are pretty anyway!

Iris? It is the state flower of Tennessee and its meanings are faith, hope and wisdom.

Lisianthus are very beautiful as decorating flowers in a bouquet. For me, its petal is similar with Rose. The meanings? Thought, outgoing and appreciation.

Orchid!! I couldn’t agree any more with this flower! some orchids are among the most exquisite and expensive flowers available. Orchid means magnificence, seduction & preciousness.

Daffodil (Narcissus) is symbolizing rebirth and new beginnings. A gift of Daffodils is said to ensure happiness of unrequited love.

Hyacinth symbolizes sport or games. It represents constancy. Purple hyacinth means “I am sorry, please forgive me” Hydrangea. A bunch of Hydrangeas is enough! Despite the meanings, I am personally attracted to this flower. Opps..I forget to tell you the meaning. It means vanity and boastfulness. See its abundance of petals and lavish, rounded shape? But by giving a bouquet of hydrangea express the giver’s gratefulness for the recipient’s understanding.

Gerberra! I found this flower when I read a florist catalogue. My company often sends flower to colleagues and clients. And I found almost every bouquet of flowers I sent, this flower always included. Many varieties and colors, so perfect! It means cheerfulness. It comes from Daisy’s family.

What about Sunflower? When I was a kid, I used to ride a bicycle in the afternoon with my friends. Then this flower captured my attention, it’s planted in front of a house. I stopped by to admire its beauty, I smelled it and of course there’s no fragrance came out from it. I really wanted to pick it! But I couldn’t, if only I brought a scissor hehehehe…Btw, it means homage and devotion.

Tips for guys: don’t save it for V days: 96% of woman like to receive flowers when not expected. Make an occasion by sending flowers to ur loved one. She’ll never forget it Of course, there are still plenty of flowers I can’t explain one by one here.

When I write this blog and search the content from many sources in the internet, this pop up in my mind “What were You thinking when You created those wonderful flowers, dear Lord?

They are merely flowers, aren’t they?

"And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?

Matt 6:29-30 (KJV)

PS: I couldn’t upload the pics here, it said that I don’t have any spaces anymore. hiks..for the pics..u can klik http://alice78.multiply.com/photos/album/11/All_about_flowers…

Ini adalah foto-foto tanah dibelakang rumah. dulunya tanah belakang ini merupakan empang seorang pemilik. Lalu empang tsb diuruk dengan tanah dan dibagi dengan beberapa blok. Salah satu blok terletak persis dibelakang rumah dan kami membeli juga tanah tsb. Dipasangi sebuah pintu penghubung yang langsung menghubungi rumah dengan tanah belakang itu. Dan tidak lupa sebuah saung dan beranda dari bambu dibangun. Saung ini menjadi tempat favorit keluarga untuk sekedar ngobrol dan kumpul, makan siang, sampai tidur siang. Disebelahnya ada kolam ikan yang sebelumnya dihuni oleh puluhan ikan gurami. Namun beberapa minggu lalu, semua ikan tersebut mati karena jamur!

Orangtuaku sangat senang berkebun dan bercocok tanam. Papaku bertangan dingin dan senang melakukan berbagai jenis percobaan seperti menyetek, mencampur pupuk dengan berbagai macam campuran dan mengganti tanah. Sedangkan Mamaku lebih rajin merawat dan mengamati perkembangan tanamannya, seperti  rajin menyiram tanaman dan biasanya Mamaku juga yang tahu pertama kali bila ada kutu tanaman ataupun saat tanaman mengeluarkan tunas baru. Karena hobi mereka tersebut, mau tidak mau akupun ikut ketularan, aku sering mengantar mereka ‘hunting’ ataupun sekedar melihat2 tanaman hias yang murah dan lagi tren. Sedikit banyak aku mengerti beberapa nama tanaman hias dan karakter2nya. 

Foto2 ini secara iseng diambil oleh Papaku:

Beberapa jenis anggrek yang sedang berbunga. Tadinya Papaku pecinta anggrek, namun kini ia tampaknya ‘cuek’ dengan anggrek. Bahkan Mamaku yang rajin merawat dan menyiramnya dengan air tajin setiap hari. Ada ratusan jenis anggrek dalam masing2 kelompoknya. Yang ada difoto ini adalah kelompok Dendrobium, bunganya kecil2 tapi rajin berbunga. Tidak seperti anggrek bulan (Phalaenopsis) yang hanya berbunga sekali dalam setahun, tapi bunganya bisa tahan mekar sampai 4-5 bulan.

Ini adalah Gelombang Cinta (Waves of Love-WOL),salah satu jenis tanaman Anthurium yang sedang dikoleksi masyarakat. WOL pun ada beberapa kualitas. Kalo mau beli WOLyang masih ukuran kecil ditempat tanaman harus tanya dulu "ini kw berapa ya?" karena harganya berbeda jauh, dan tingkat ‘keriting’ atau tegak daunnya bisa berbeda setelah tanaman tersebut besar. (Note: bnyk jg pedagang yg nakal/curang).Anthurium Hookery,Jenmanii, Keris, Garuda sekarang banyak diminati masyarakat. Harganya bisa mencapai ratusan juta untuk Jenmanii. Well, terus terang, aku kurang suka dengan Anthurium (daun doank gitu loh, kok mahal2 amat ya?).

Kalau sekedar daun saja tanpa bunga aku lebih suka dengan Aglaonema. Perpaduan warna daunnya unik, begitu juga dengan tangkai daunnya. Sangat beraneka ragam, seperti warna pink dominan (Lady Valentine), warna pink bercak2 diatas hijau (Venus) dan banyak banget namanya yang dinamai berdasarkan karakter/rupa tanaman tersebut. Contohnya jenis Lipstik dimana daun tersebut dibingkai dengan warna merah seperti lipstik yang membingkai bibir. Dan harganya bervariasi dari yang paling murah/lokal (Donacarmen) sampai jutaan Rupiah  perlembar daun. (baca:per lembar daun bukannya per pot ya!)

Ini Euphorbia. Kalau yang lokal, tumbuh dengan cabang yang banyak dikiri-kanan dan warna bunganya tidak se’indah’ yang Thailand. Sedangkan Euphorbia import beda, ‘tubuhnya’ tegak lurus menjulang keatas tanpa ada cabang (kalaupun ada hanya satu dan dua), trus warnanya lebih tajam dan indah. Hehehe..tapi emang bener sih mengapa bunga2 dr Thailand jauh lebih bagus, karena mereka rajin melakukan berbagai percobaan untuk menemukan species baru dengan mengambil gen2 tanaman induk yang bagus. Contohnya Euphorbia berwarna orange cenderung pink dengan warna hijau sedikit. Namanya Duang Isaree. Sedangkan yang lebih merah adalah "Manee Cintana"

Gambar sebelah (bunga kuning) adalah bunga Kamboja Jepang. Ini lokal dan bukan bonsai, tapi biar lokal bunganya bagus kan? hehehhe. Yang merah ini namanya Cleo (bukan aku yg kasih nama, tp emang dari sononya :p). Kalau yang bunga putih ada beberapa nama, kalau gak salah ini Moradoklok (kayaknya salah spelling deh hehehhe), atau mungkin Qyu-Qyu. Bedanya dimana? bunganya sama2 putih, tapi kalo Qyu Qyu bunganya bergerombol dan tidak ‘hidup’ sendiri seperti Moradoklok. Bingung kan? banyak banget jenis dan namanya! Kamboja Jepang ini Adedium nama kerennya. Adenium bonsai sempat di’gilai’ masyarakat. Dan banyak dilombakan keindahan batang, akar dan bunganya. Akarnya dibentuk bonsai dan dibentuk dengan indah, begitu juga daun dan bunga yang seperti ‘disusun’. Aku pernah baca dan melihat profil bunga2 juara tersebut. Dahsyat man! kok bisa yaa Bonsai Adenium dibentuk sebagus itu. Itulah seni! Seperti tanaman bonsai Jepang yang dulu sempat menghebohkan dunia. Diantara semua tanaman hias tersebut, yang aku paling hapal dan suka adalah Adenium. Ada ratusan jenis bunga, jeng! Belum lagi yang Adenium Arabicum dengan batang besar tapi bercabang banyak.

Ada juga pohon pepaya di tanah belakang ini:P Pepayanya manis loh! Jenis Pepaya Bangkok dan pepaya California/Hawai. Juga ada pohon pisang yang sudah siap ditebang. Hmm..pesanannya sudah banyak nih, saat baru mengeluarkan tunas, Mamaku sudah sibuk bagi-bagi jatah. Tante A dapat satu sisir, tante B dapat 1 sisir, si anu, si dia, dll masing2 kebagian jatah.

Ada juga pohon cabai, jadi sekarang kami tidak pernah membeli cabai, soalnya tinggal metik, bahkan tadinya sampai busuk, tapi sekarang semua cabai yang sudah matang dijemur kering dan digiling jadi serbuk, lalu disimpan dalam toples di lemari es.

Sayang sekali Papaku hanya sekedar iseng ngambil foto seadanya, padahal masih ada beberapa Adenium yang aku suka dari akarnya dan bunganya. Ada juga Jenis Philodendrom Moonlight, Caladium, Red Congo. Kalau aku punya duit lebih, My Backyard ini akan aku rubah menjadi taman yang indah dan asri, dipenuhi dengan berbagai tanaman hias yang beraneka ragam. Ssstt…Yang jelas Aglaonema, Adenium, Caladium, Anthurium, Sansiviera, dan bunga2/tanaman lainnya menjadi penghuni tetap:d

Kekayaaan alam ini memang luar biasa bagusnya! Kebayang gak sih betapa creativenya Tuhan itu dalam menciptakan tumbuh2an dengan berbagai fungsi dan keindahan? Itu baru tanaman loh….belum manusia yang sengaja diciptakan sesuai dengan gambar dan rupaNya dimana masing2 manusia adalah unik tak dapat diukur dengan apapun juga..

I am always amazed and wonder how God shows the way to His beloved ones. He opens and closes the doors, He creates ways in such things we can’t understand or imagine before. Even sometimes I think how unfair the life is. But this come to my mind, God knows all far beyond than what I know. And God is God! Let Him be God and do His job with His unlimited wisdom and immeasurable justice, who am I to judge people and His awesome works? One thing for sure, God is good! No questioning?

Recently, I was disappointed about something and questioning God. But I chose to be silent and gave thanks, ‘coz I was sure He knew something that I didn’t know. Every thing seemed perfect as I planned, things run well as I expected before. But then things happened on the contrary side. Even I still had a question in my heart; I left it to God. But now, the question has been answered. And I’m amazed how God protects me from any harm, heartaches, wrong decisions, sin and bigger problems that may happen in the future. It’s all cleared now! I see the problems now. Thank you God, for You’ve been so faithful to us, Your children. How awesome!

Let Your will be done, not my will..

Merci Beaucoup, mon Dieu!

First quarter of this year just ended. As I look back at this quarter, I got a little disappointment about the achievement and resolutions I made at the beginning of the year. I was so excited when entering year 2008 and made some new resolutions, dreams, targets, goals, and plans. I even put some pictures of my dreams on the wall. I planned to look at them every morning and night to remind me about my dreams. I planned every step and put some measurable goals. With a widen smile, I looked at my dream book with a fascinating look.

Then I become so busy at work, I feel exhausted and lose my energy. My mind become idle and lost its creativity. I just live my life like I used to, nothing special! Day after day I wake up with a jump then rush to office. Things become routine and I feel bored! I didn’t have any energy to make my goals achieved; I even look at my wall with no interest. Those are just pictures! I have lost the enthusiasm.

So many things happened, like stock market crashes. Well, the crash of stock market is not the cause of my unenthusiastic life. I really don’t care about that, even I invest in stock markets. Many investors become so weary and upset because of the cut loss syndrome. They feel disgusting when looking at the unrealistic chart on their monitor. And they try different method to predict where the market will go, fundamental & technical analysis, market bearer, searching top analyst, news hunter, bla bla bla…but I’m really calm and not panic at all. I just believe that some day, it will rebound! History always repeats itself in the future…

I enjoy my time with my friends, hang out with them, dancing, singing, laughing and doing fun and crazy things. I also have a great community in church and cell groups. And I always say a famous motto like “work hard, play hard”. But is it enough???

So, what is the problem? Why I lost the enthusiasm in life? I become restless, easy to get angry, negative thinking. Even the phone call can ruin my mood in my busy work!

As I look at my wall with pictures on it. I become so sad with the resolutions I made this year. They are totally abandoned! And I didn’t do anything to settle them!

As I meditate alone in my quite time, I see the problem. The problem is in me! Yes, it’s in me! No need to blame others, no need to blame my jobs/works, my friends, my coworkers, my boss, etc…

What’s wrong with me?

I think too much than I should, then I become worry and restless.
I think about my careers and my jobs…
I think about my future relationships…
I think about my family…
And I have to decide soon for those things. Choices and chances! I am afraid to lose chances, but I am not daring enough to make choices. I am afraid with uncertain results, they are so unpredictable. I’m just afraid to make a move. Separating facts from fictions, real and unreal things….analyzing things too much…comparing things too much…

They are occupying my mind over and over again….over and over again…in my mind everything seems fine, it’s okay, it’s alright! But somehow I know something’s missing….

Then suddenly something pop up in my head….

What will I do if my computer becomes so slow? It often freezes in the middle of work, then I have to restart it again and maybe I lost my data which I’ve been working on. Yes, it’s so annoying! I can’t finish my jobs, the computer slow down me!

First, I will check the programs in my computer. I will uninstall unnecessary programs I never or rarely use. Then I scan it to find out if there’re any viruses that harm my computer.

Second, I will delete unnecessary data and files to give more space.

Third, if they r still not working! I will re-format my computer!!! Final step! But it works!

SO, this is what I’m gonna do…re-format my mind!

They’re too full with unnecessary things and programs. I have to re-format my mind and re-new it day by day…

Say the word and I’m free…
Say the word and nothing’s missing…
Romans 12:2-3

Welcoming the second quarter…

Patty Smith said “sometimes love just ain’t enough”
Some said, “Money is important, even it’s not the most important thing”
My friend said, “You can’t rely on your feeling alone”
Is that so hard to say, “I do”?

Being single for two years has made me staying in my comfort zone. I have a lot of friends (both male and female), friends to share laughter and tears, friends to cheer me up when I feel sad, friends to have fun or doing ‘crazy-funny-things’. I am free to do anything I want, go everywhere I want to go, with everyone I like. And I don’t have to worry if someone will complain at me. I don’t bother to report my daily activities, my plans, etc. Most of all, I don’t have to argue or conflict with someone. Quarrels? Debating unnecessary things? Controlling my emotions? Adjusting this and that or try to accept the way he is.

I have been thru many relationships. Some men are really nice, some are bastard, some are coward. Well, it’s nice to have someone who cares for me like giving me a little surprise, watching movies, romantic dinners, sending me gifts or buying me things, or maybe just hanging out alone. Is that all? Is that what I really want and need?
Is love about taking and giving?
Is it about sacrificing yourself to each other?
Is it about enjoying moments together?

Does chemistry play the most important thing in relationship? What if the feeling ups and downs? Commitment? aha! Yes, it’s all about commitment…but when am i ready for a new commitment?

Two weeks ago, someone asked me for a serious relationship. I was speechless and silent like rock. Ooppss…again? This is the third or maybe the fourth man who asked a serious relationship/commitment with me.
Am I going to say "no" again like before?
I need to be sure if he’s the one then I will answer ‘yes’. After that I will go on with this new relationship. I don’t want to waste my time just to try out!

Friends’ comments:
A friend promoted him by saying, “I know him a lot, his characters, his family, etc! He’s a responsible man, hard worker and smart! The most important is he has a good faith!”
And she continued, “don’t believe in such thing like chemistry! It’s only temporary, u know! He has such qualities, love can grow later on”

At Menteng, while eating fried rice with a friend, Yodi, he said “Don’t waste time by your doubt. You already knew the answer. Just simply say no then life goes on.”
But I don’t want to lose a chance anymore, chance doesn’t come twice, rite?
My friend, Shieny becomes a police by interrogating me like, “Can I look his pic? Is he black or white or yellow (pelangi kalee)? How about his character? is he smart? Is he high tech or low-tech? Is he good at computer? dia gaptek gak sih? Gak imbang donk kalo dia gaptek!! 
“shien, emangnya kalo gaptek salah satu indicator kalo dia gak imbang sama gue?” 
*Alice rolling on a floor and laughing out loud*

Another friend, Indah said “know his character first, alice”
“yeah, I was dating and going out with him.”
“No, don’t go out that often. Cos’ he might thing you give him a hope. You may not spending too much time alone with him, you may not…blab la bla…”
“Yes, mommy!” wakakakakaka

Another friend, Ngongo responded, “just say yes! Don’t be too picky like that! I’ve told you to choose one of the guy who approached you. Remember ur age! How long will you wait and get married?”

Danau-ers suggested some crazy ideas and that made me laughing all the time at office. Since they know me very well, and know my experiences.
Suzie, “test yourself by holding hand with him, if you feel like you wanna run a mile away, so he’s not for u!” hihihihi..what a test? So funny!
Anton, “give him a time test! A probation period! 3 months without any commitments. If within 3 months the chemistry grows between you and him, u may continue this relationship with established commitment.”
Ranee shouted in excitement, “Agree with Anton!!!”

Friends…you are lovely, cute, adorable….I thank the Lord for having friends like you…
Time will tell….and I will give the answer and this time I will not rely on my emotion, my thoughts and my wisdom.
I leave it with the Lord and I’m sure He’ll guide and direct my path.

Ada apa dengan Lippo Karawaci?

Beberapa minggu lalu, seorang teman lama (fufu) menyapa, "hi sista, apa kabar???"
Lalu terjadilah sebuah percakapan singkat mengenai kabar masing2, lalu "kok sama ya kita?"(maksudnya ceritanya hampir mirip) hahahaha dasar!!
Percakapan dilanjutkan dengan janji ketemu, karena kalo ketemu pasti lebih seru lagi untuk cerita sampai puas.
"tapi gue gak bisa minggu ini, minggu depan lagi yak!"
"ok! ntar kita kontak2an! lagian I miss Lippo Karawaci kok!" jawab gue.

2 minggu kemudian…
sebuah sms mengabarkan telah lahir putri kedua dari teman gue, Eva.
"aha! pas banget nih! Eva juga berdomisili di Lippo Karawaci. Ada baiknya, gue kunjungi Eva dulu, trus nongkrong sama Fufu…
Sambil menyelam minum air…

Esoknya…
SMS dari teman gw, Eveline "Imenk masuk RS Siloam, di kamar sekian-sekian…"
Gw terkejut! Imenk atit apa? kok bisa?
Sabtu deh sekalian…rubah rencana..pagi ke rumah Eva, siang mampir ke Siloam, ketemu dengan Imenk dan Eveline, sore ketemu Fufu…
Sambil menyelam minum air dan cari mutiara

Eiitss..Siloam??
I have a friend who works there!This is his first week there! Sekalian ah…
Sambil menyelam minum air, cari mutiara dan bercanda dengan ikan laut…hehehhe

Kamis malam…hujan lebat semalaman mengguyur Jakarta…
Saat itu, gw sedang bersama teman (Rianty) nongkrong di Bellagio sampai tengah malam…
Dan akhirnya gue gak bisa pulang karena banjir memenuhi jalanan kos gw…
dengan senang hati, gw nginep dirumahnya….
A nite with Rianty…
Bertatapan2 diatas tempat tidur, pijit2an …cekikikan gak jelas…(duh kyk pengantin baru) dan akhirnya gue tergerak sekali doain dia…
"LO harus sembuh, Ngo! LO harus sembuh! cos I luv u" saat itu dia sedang sakit, and gue sedih sekali mendengar penyakitnya…
Akhirnya dia tertidur kayak anak babi yang lucu…
sementara gue??? ada nyamuk dikamar itu..dan gue gak bisa tidur kalo ada nyamuk..gw tepok2! tapi nyamuk lebih lincah dari tepokan tangan gue yang dah kelelahan…

"Thanks Lis atas doanya, gw tidur nyenyaaakk bangett…"
"yeaah…kok lo bisa yaa tidur ada nyamuk gitu?"
"ooh…biarin aahh…udah biasa…kapan nginep lagi?…"
"yuukk…tp gw harus bawa baygon electric…."

Jumat siang…banjir mulai memenuhi Jakarta…terjadi kemacetan dimana-mana..
kantor gue dipulangkan jam 1 siang. Tapi gue bersama teman2 kantor malah main Uno stacko dulu sambil teriak2 norak diruang meeting…
Jam 2 gue pulang…pas lewat tol bintaro..muaccett…namun gue tiba dengan selamat…

Sabtunya…
gw punya rencana yang sudah gw susun..
pagi kerumah Eva, siang ke Siloam, sore ke Mall Karawaci janjian sama Fufu…
Sambil menyelam minum air, cari mutiara dan bercanda dengan ikan laut…what a perfect plan! Semua teman gue diatas yang tidak saling kenal satu dengan lain berdomisili di Karawaci…
Plan A, plan B or plan Z gagal semua karena Kebon Nanas kerendam air…
Rencana yang sudah disusun sempurna gagal hanya karena sebuah bencana alam atau kelalaian manusia??

hmm..manusia boleh berencana, tapi Tuhan juga yang menentukan…
Yak 4:13-16
Ayub 42:2
Maz 33:10-11